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It's been my excuse for all the parts of me that I hate. It's been with me so long that I find comfort in it's familiarity, and can't imagine not having it by my side. It's interesting, because a part of me doesn't want you to fight it off. I hope one day you'll be able to fight it off. Don't let the depression take control of you. I think I'm relatively happy with who I am right now, but there are goals that I still have.
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I would have liked to make more progress though. I'm on good terms with Matthaus, Mikhail, Michael Wang, Nico, and others, although the former 2 less so now as we don't share any classes. I tried to go out and actually talk to people. Have I made new friends, as I hoped I would last year? I think I've been partially successful. I've been talking to Jasmine recently and I've found she's similar to me in many ways. Thankfully Kevin is still a great support to me, and so is Roger (although there does exist some irrational jealousy of him). I don't enjoy confiding in Eric anymore I often feel like he doesn't take things seriously. I've fallen out with Tom the best word to describe our relationship is cordial. Actually you can't really do that in a year but you get the idea. I'm afraid that I won't be able to find a well paying job, or that a psych degree will be useless. I've really enjoyed learning psych, and it's one of the classes I actually enjoy taking notes for. Art and writing can be my hobbies on the side. My plan right now is to major in psychology, hopefully get a master's. I've decided what I want to do in the future. Social anxiety contributes a lot to my negative thoughts. The stress of school likely also contributed. I stopped seeing my therapist because I thought I was "cured." It's not so easy apparently. The past few weeks have been pretty shit. Remember to make a time capsule with all your close friends so you guys can meet again in 10 years :D In combination with hanging out with old Louis friends, the week before school started was one of the happiest I've ever been. I started doing therapy in August, and I think it really helped. I started an art account and a document with all my story ideas early this year. I really believe I've found a great passion of mine. It was sort of a blessing in disguise though, as I found my calling in drawing and writing: two art forms that I could channel my negative energy into. Over the summer when Corona happened was one of my lowest periods. Some days are better than others, some months are highs and some are lows. Surprise surprise, I wasn't pretending to be depressed like I thought a year ago, I'm actually depressed. I found it to be enjoyable to read, and it really gave me insight about my personal growth. I wrote a time capsule last year and read it today.
#So im gana love you update#
(Ooh) Never gonna give, never gonna give (give you up)įor past me, an update (although future me will likely take pleasure in reading this as well) and for future me, my expectations and hopes for you. Your heart's been aching but you're too shy to say it
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Never gonna make you cry, never gonna say goodbye Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down